juice cleanse here we go...

Starting weight 145

tired, sluggish, love handles, eating crap because nothing sounds good and crap is cheap (I'm not even really hungry yet I still eat because well everyone else is eating) - not the way to go

will do juice (as close to 100% of my diet) as I can, then back to veggies & fruit 

2nd chiro appointment later this morning - 30 minute leg massage then adjustment... taking this week off to rehab, but next week I'll be back to both leagues.

frustrated

leg isn't any better... a customer (chiropracter) came into the office today, told him about my situation - i have an appointment on friday.  i need to know exactly how bad it is before i plan the rest of the season.

i felt like such a baby - a whiner.  when it's sports related and i can't do what i want to do i just wanna mope around and cry (don't worry i don't - i hold it in). 

saturday morning daughter had the cheerleading event - cold, raining, crap!  i stayed in the car half the time.  came home, decide to start painting the living room - got half done.  looks okay, not as good as boyfriend would do it.  at least this time i asked for NO help.  as long as I'm not walking long distances i can tolerate the leg pain.  

i suggested fishing for sunday (really cindy?  walking and climbing rocks?) - yeah, that didn't happen.  we went to ikea instead for new drapes.  i totally gimped it - sucked.  went to lunch - yummy bbq and then saw the dictator - pretty funny movie - really wanted to see the hunger games but the timing wasn't right.  

i did rent the iron lady this weekend - it was awesome.  i never appreciated meryl streep until julie and julia - her characters are just so incredible you forget that it's her.  

this really stuck with me:

1. Margaret Thatcher:  "Watch your thoughts, for they become words.Watch your words, for they become actions. Watch your actions, for they become habits. Watch your habits, for they become your character. And watch your character, for it becomes your destiny. What we think, we become. My father always said that. And I think I am fine."

frickin' frackin' leg...

taped, wrapped, iced - all during work.  ankle is still swollen.  am i really going to take 2 whole weeks off volleyball?!  *big sigh*.  does anyone understand how depressing that it is? the weather is gorgeous here - this is my favorite time of year to start playing... and now i gotta be a grown up and heal?!  shit.  i gotta decide pretty quickly if i'm going to join the sand league starting 6/1 or find a sub.  i know, my life is full of hard choices. 

It's been a while!

Job is going well - the job description keeps changing but I'm okay with that.  B/F worked through winter (it's been years since that's happened) so our finances are getting in better shape.  Steady pay coming in for both of us.  Daughter made it on cheer team again - completed her first fundraiser - she's really bustin' ass on them this year.  The team does their first charity event this Saturday (cheering on walkers for the cystic fibrosis foundation).  I'll carpool some kids, bring my beach chair and just hang out in the sun reading the paper... BUT with my fishing / lifeguard looking hat on. 

After 5 years I finally got new glasses - so when I'm at home I can actually SEE the TV.  They're cute enough I could wear them in public too.  Normally I wear my contacts 24/7 but allergies take their toll and my eyes pay for it. 

Grass volleyball just started and the first night out my left calf was cramping a bit.  Tried to shake it out, stretch, etc - kept getting worse.  Eventually I couldn't put any weight on it and my leg, ankle and foot were swollen.  Calmed down in about 2 weeks then last night playing "pop!" it happened again.  :(    Hurts like a mother-fucker.  I had to quit half-way through and missed my tournament later on.  UGH.  I'm assuming it's a pulled calf muscle.  This is bullshit.  I'm going to go get a brace today for it (happened to another v-ball friend and she said the brace is making a difference).  Really worried since I also start a sand league in 2 weeks.  arrrrrrgggghhhhhhhh.

Been fishing a lot of course - love the weather and our beautiful mountains.  Can never get tired of it.

Other 2 daughters come out next month (along with my dad and his g/f visiting).  Kids will be here for a month - can't wait!