Friday, December 31, 2010

1 1/2 hours for what again?

Drove 1 1/2 hours this morning through snow & ice to get to work, to work a full 3 hours... uhhhh was it worth it???! Except the boss is paying me for a full 8 hours - gotta take what I can get at this point.

The ice on the ground scares the crap outta me. I hate driving on it, I hate WALKING on it. We're supposed to be at a whopping 14 degrees today.

We were invited to a new year's party tonight, but I'd have to drive another 1 1/2 hours home, then back again in the same area to attend - teenager is still sick - knowing us we'll just stay home. I'm interested to see how many people will be in downtown Denver tonight for the free fireworks show - I'd go, but not in this cold!

Happy new year everyone...

Thursday, December 30, 2010

sick sick sick

B/F still mildly sick, teenager sick sick. I refuse to get sick.

Haven't heard from the youngest since I told her she could live with dad. Typical. They must be throwing one helluva party out there. Talked to her teenage sister out there - asked are you excited about your little sister living with you? "uh I guess so". Little sister's facebook account was closed down because she was showing pics of her with her new pocketknife she got for Christmas. AWESOME. Before she left our house for WA she was stabbing things with a knife in her room. Can't even wrap my head around it.

So now I will have another empty room in the house. When the teenage twin left to live with Dad I turned her room into the craft room. Now the youngest has left I guess that will be the craft room and the original craft room will be a guest room. It's all too weird. I have to do something with it otherwise I'll just cry walking past it every night.

As you know B/F and brother are in the housepainting business. Their boss told them last week try to find another job because I have no work for you. NO PROBLEM! Especially in the middle of winter - should be a snap! *rolling eyes*.

You'd think I'd be stressing with all that happened this week. Okay, I am. But I feel like I'm on autopilot - like I took 2 advil PM's but I'm trying to stay awake. Is this the f'd up way I'm dealing with it?

I need spring. I need volleyball.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

it's not the end, even though it feels like it is

I have "given in" and am letting the youngest live with her Dad in another state. She has been wanting this for the past couple of years. I am hurting and sad and another piece of my heart is broken. I cried enough tears over this last night and today I'm just dead inside. It feels like he has "won" again. But I can't compete with having a free place to live, with ample spending money and a little girl wanting her Daddy... so now he'll have the youngest out there and the teenage twin. I will have them summers and every other Christmas and Spring Break I suppose.

So that leaves one teenager at my home now, who has written off her father completely.

This is not the end, this is not the end...

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

new pics - I figured out the camera, finally!

A sampling of what I've been working on...

Monday, December 27, 2010

back to posting...

Wow, a whole month - where have I been? Oh yeah, doing too much...

At work today - boss and wife out of town until Thursday. Eating popcorn and drinking water for lunch. All the "food" we have in the snack room is over processed crap - I can't handle eating it (boss eats it) and yet I'm too lazy to go get lunch so popcorn it is. Hopefully no one comes into the office today - I'm wearing jeans, a hoodie and my crocs (in 40 degree weather) - super professional huh?

The ornament thing has been going well. I sold almost 35 so far. Will have repeat-yearly orders from some other agents down the hall. Sent ornaments to all family and friends for Christmas this year (all I could afford to do). Everyone loved them - whew!

I forgot that we had an old camera (and the flash works) however I can't find the cord that will upload the pics to the computer - that's on my list to do tonight...

Christmas was spent at the b/f's brother's house for a few hours - nice to meet his wife's family. They were all super nice. At around 3 pm we came home to open gifts. Only 1 teenager at home with us. The 10 year old flew to her Dad's, the other twin teenager I couldn't afford to fly out. B/F woke up sick Christmas day - he just spoke to his brother - the whole entire family is sick. What the heck?

Get this, the teenager's dad didn't send her a gift or even CALL her on Christmas. Really? Granted, this kid has given you a lot of grief, but how old are you? 5? Is this your revenge? F you. What a shitty thing to do.

When I took the 10 year old to the airport they kept asking what year she was born... well the ex put in 1998 instead of 2000 when ordering the tickets online so he could avoid the $50 unaccompanied minor fee. So guess who had to pay for it - OF COURSE ME. As usual. "oh, I put in 1998?" - it's not like 2000 vs 1998 is just a TYPO. Do you think anyone believes you just accidently screwed up? again? and again?

I was ready to take down ALL the Christmas stuff that night, but I waited until Sunday. I couldn't stand it any longer. It's so frickin' crowded with all that crap out. Now it's all boxed up, including the garland and lights outside. I literally just ripped it down.

Hope everyone enjoyed their holiday... :)