mom's progress

Still at hospital.  I fly back again next Thursday when she'll be moved into a nursing home.  This last month has been the hardest time in my entire life.  At one point I was surprised I could still function (even if barely).

Saw a therapist twice and he gave me the book

A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose

by Eckhart Tolle.  If anything has saved my sanity it's been this book (and of course my therapist)

http://closeinhealing.com/

mom

My mother, who lives in California, who unfortunately I am not super close with, had 2 small strokes last week.  Thought she was improving but now it's taken a turn for the worse.  I fly out to CA tomorrow morning.  Stomach is in knots.  My dad, her ex, went to see her yesterday.  She's like a skeleton, not eating, not really communicating or understanding what's going on.  I am it for family - there is no one else.  I don't know if she has any directives, a will - any info regarding her financial affairs and what to do to take care of them.

I am trying NOT to panic.  Not panicking is not my strong point.  It was hard enough to handle when my daughter left, and now... THIS. 

3 hour counseling session this past Saturday

with the boyfriend.  Amazing how what you originally go in for is not what you end up going in for.  So much of life explained and understood.  What is your ego, your personality and your core self.  What you do to protect yourself that actually hinders you.  

Life altering.  

We are going back in a month and we'll continue to go...