be gone!

If only ex's would disappear forever

134

Wow, I didn't even try. I did occupy myself last night in the new guest/craft room and worked on Valentine's Day bookmarks for 3 hours which means I didn't snack at all. It was relaxing - b/f hooked up the radio so I could listen to classical music. Does this mean 130 is attainable? I just read somewhere you have less health risks if you can reach your high school weight. I was 115 in high school (what a twig!). I can't really imagine that would be a healthy weight at 5'7 though...

scared to start

When there are so many things to do, I get scared and FREEZE and can't do any of them. Deer in the headlights. I have to tell myself, repeat in my head, over and over again "stop at the auto repair shop, stop at the shop, stop at the shop, STOP AT THE SHOP". Reminds me of "The Aviator" (anyone see that movie??? my youngest, who's 9, she loves it - WEIRD movie to love at 9).

what a turkey

Well, my neck that is... I don't know what's happening, but it's been happening for the last year - my skin is getting wrinkled and kinda droopy there. In fact, when I look at it (after I mentally SCREAM) it looks like a guy lifting up his balls. LOVELY! I have neck-balls! Ugh - gross. I bought the neckline slimmer at Christmas. Used it for a few days then stopped. I started again this Monday with determination! Please God let it work...

I didn't get away with it

What a mistake - to eat that Carl's Jr meal - I was up until 1:30 am. Why do I think my stomach can ever handle that kind of food??? Ugghhh!

where's the green?

so I "splurged" today and printed off a $1 coupon online and went to Carl's Jr for a combo meal - when I do this I don't eat dinner since it's so much food (and normally I can't even finish the combo meal). Coupon was for the grilled cheese bacon burger. with fries. with a coke. After finishing I realized something didn't taste right, something was missing. No lettuce, no tomato, nada. Am I actually MISSING having vegetables? Normally this meal would be such a "treat" but now I feel BLAH. and I know my stomach will be payin' for it later.

I live in fear

There are more things…that frighten us than injure us, and we suffer more in imagination than in reality

- Seneca
Roman philosopher, statesman and dramatist
c 4 B.C. - AD 65